Jenni on Skype: jclayville 
Dearest Brian,
Today is your 35th birthday.
As I sit here and think through our last year together, I am again humbled that I still get to be your wife. In the past year, you have found me to be a liar, a coward, an adulteress and a completely broken human being… yet, when even I couldn’t choose myself… you chose me.
Thank you for forgiving me for something unforgivable
Thank you for not throwing my mistakes in my face
Thank you for extending grace when I performed a graceless act
Thank you for loving me when no one else did
Thank you for defending me when I wasn’t worth defending
Thank you for showing me unconditional love when I was so conditional
Thank you for being an AMAZING father to our boys through all of it
Thank you for still choosing me… everyday.
Thank you, baby.
For your birthday… I want nothing more than to take back every mistake I’ve ever made in our marriage. I wish I could remove all the hurt and all the mixed up, messed up memories from the last 3 years…
… but I can’t change the past.
However, I CAN live for today and tomorrow. So… for your birthday…
I’m choosing YOU
I’m loving YOU with every breath in my body
I’m choosing OUR children
I’m praying for YOU
I’m investing in my own physical, mental, emotional & spiritual health
I’m making our house OUR home
I’m giving YOU my firsts… not my scraps
For your 35th birthday, I am planning our future together. A future that leaves my past behind… because it’s only *OUR FUTURE* that matters now. I’m excited for what this year will bring for you… for me… for US. I’m looking forward to many more birthdays and anniversaries… but today… I’m just thankful for YOU.
… and I’m pretty sure I always will be.
Happy 35th Birthday, Brian. May this be your best year ever!
I love you… more than stupid words could ever express. I love you.
Jenni, that is such a beautiful post.
And the photo is priceless!
Happy Birthday Brian
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SO BEAUTIFUL! Praise God for restoration and healing!
Blessings,
Lindsey
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Jenni,
I am so proud to call you my wife. You are an amazing mom and an incredible friend to many. Yes you have made some major mistakes and God has given me the desire and willingness to forgive you. You made forgiveness much easier by humbling yourself before God and then me. You risked so much and that is one reason I am more in love with you now than ever before.
Let’s keep growing old together and keep God the center of our relationship.
Love You
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jenni Reply:
November 19th, 2009 at 8:19 am
sounds like a good deal!
i love you, baby! happy birthday!!!
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wow, that was SO beautiful, Jenni. thank you Jesus, for Brian. happy birthday, friend!
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jenni Reply:
November 19th, 2009 at 8:21 am
happy birthday to you too, sweet one. QUARTER OF A DECADE!!!
you are amazing, crystal! thank you for walking with me through this whole thing. you are cherished.
loveyou!
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Crystal Renaud Reply:
November 19th, 2009 at 8:22 am
quarter of a decade? dork.
love you!
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jenni Reply:
November 19th, 2009 at 8:26 am
i was gonna say “century” but then i realized you were younger… and 25 couldn’t be right, right?
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sooooooooo sweet…
love it!
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jenni – you are a good woman. worthy to be loved. brian sees and knows that. you two are perfect for each other and meant for each other. and you both inspire many!!!
brian – i love you, friend. happy birthday!! you are a man of great character and a stellar example for other men to follow. i respect you greatly!
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A most awesome post! I hope Brian has a most awesome birthday! :]
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jenni. plain and simple i love you. you are so courageous and an example to me in how to live your life in total honesty even if it hurts. i love you.
brian. happy birthday! it was great to finally put a face and person with @brianclayville and your blog. ha! hope you have a good birthday! you deserve it!
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what sweet words to your loving husband! Happy 35th Brian! You really are a fantastic guy, and couple you two! Love you guys!
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This is such a beautiful post. I love you and your honest, open heart. What a blessing to see the love that you both share.
Brian – Happy Birthday and thanks for loving my friend so well.
Love you both!
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AWWWW! You guys make me happy!
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jenni Reply:
November 20th, 2009 at 8:46 am
i love you! i want to see you… like yesterday!
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I pray for the day that my marriage can have this kind of healing.
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woah.
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