I feel like I’m treading water.
My heads just above the water line.
I’m tired.
No. Exhausted.
I see land. Rest. Hope.
But it’s SO far away.
And I don’t know if I can get there.
Or if I’ll drown before I get there.
Maybe if I float on my back for a bit.
Where’s my back again?
And what if I get turned around while I’m on my back floating?
What if start floating the wrong direction.
I need a coastguard.
And a strong cup of coffee.
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Floating Thoughts – 09.21.10
My brain does not seem to be functioning linearly today… so, I’m just gonna punch my thoughts out here as they come.
HOLLA!!!
- Paxton is SO cute in footy pajamas. I don’t ever want him to grow up.
- where do all my pens go?
- why does the smell of bacon linger in the house for SO long?
- i have some really amazingly constant and generous friends.
- i’m thankful how invested my in-laws are in our family.
- i don’t miss having a job, but I sure do miss the income that comes with it.
- LOVED my sweet friends’ post today, but don’t understand why some people justify living untruthfully.
- i’ll be 32 in 4 days.
- i forgot how old i was gonna be till just about 12 seconds ago.
- we haven’t subscribed to cable/dish/anything tv for over a year now. i haven’t missed it.
- there may be something wrong with my right eye. the world seems blurry out of there more often than not.
- Brian and I get to go to El Paso to visit Paseo in a week and 2 days.
- my kids produce more buggars in their nose than ALL of Chance’s kindergarten class. i’m sure of it.
- the last time i saw a dentist was 5 years ago. is that bad?
- oh, where is my hairbrush?
- why do kids like Elmo so much?
- i think the avatars/fb profile pics people choose for themselves show a lot about their heart.
- there are 328 photos sitting in my camera right now. hmmm…
- one of my biggest fears is that God would send our family to live in a place without indoor plumbing.
- i’m positive you are judging me for that last floating thought.
- i’m okay with that.
- another fear i have is getting a turkey neck with age.
- i’d like to invent some sort of sponge-like apparatus that gets rid of water-retention & bloating.
- moment of honesty: i’ve been on strike from church… but i think i’m ready to un-strike soon.
- pretty sure you’re not supposed to see the stainless steel in pots & pans that have teflon.
- one of my daily prayer requests is for God to sustain the life of my washer and dryer. seriously.
- i’m pretty sure you’re judging me for that last one too.
- favorite inventions: burt’s bees lip balm, clorox wipes & duct tape.
- the show nip/tuck terrifies me.
- but i’d like to nip/tuck the bags under my eyes… permanently.
- when Paxton says “sit”, it sounds like “s*it”. i laugh E.V.E.R.Y.T.I.M.E.
- i’m starting to think it may be easier to embrace my muffin top than to work it off.
- mmmm… muffins.
your turn.
Floating Thought
It’s that time again… you know… when I can’t seem to gather all my thoughts into one comprehensive post, so I’ll just bullet point and type ALMOST exactly what my mind gathers!
- I just received free albums from Kari Jobe & Joel Ruge (promo items for churches). The bum deal is I just BOUGHT Kari Jobe’s album. Glad I supported her. Sad I spent money where I didn’t need to.
- I love that my cutie patootie hubby, Brian, is blogging and twittering a lot more than before. I like sharing this world with him.
- Chance has a ridiculously large vocabulary for being 3, but he still says a few things incorrectly and I think it’s WAY to cute to correct him just yet. Here are just 4 of his words (I’ll write a whole post about it someday):
- “cric-crocs” = flip flops
- “peeks” = keeps
- “perfeck” = perfect
- “liveberry” = library
- Paxton is getting some seriously chubby thighs and I just LOVE that. He also rarely cries, and you can always stop his crying just by singing to him. When he smiles, my whole world melts for him.
- At this time last year, I would have NEVER thought I’d life, for me, would look the way it does today.
- How is it possible to just stop loving someone you said you would always love?
- Life as a stay-at-home Mom can get really lonely if I’m not careful.
- Good: The weather is crazy beautiful right now in Portland. Bad: That means allergies are going to attack me soon. Boooo!!!
- We got rid of cable a month ago… I don’t think I’ve even missed it.
- Looking at a possible new home. I’ll update soon… if there’s anything to update.
- I’m so sick of moving!!!
- We are going on our annual beach trip with our closest friends in two weeks. I can’t wait ‘cuz I miss having THOSE friends around.
- In THREE weeks, Matt, Brian and I (with Paxton in tow) will be in Florida for a week for the Exponential Conference. This is exciting because I haven’t been to a conference in a few years AND this will be the first NON-worship or Youth Ministry conference I’ve attended. This will be for church planters. I *heart* learning.
- I love lemons.
- I had a dream that I was in a home that was disorganized and full of cats. I woke up sweaty and so tense, it took me 10 full minutes till I could move again.
- The memory foam pad we got for our old bed helps us A LOT… but I still think we need a new bed.
- It’s time for Chance to move out of his toddler bed and it’s time for us to find a big boy bed for him. Anyone getting rid of a twin bed? Bunk beds maybe?
- I still have a box of thin mints in my freezer
Quick!!!
25 Random Things About Me
Ok… ok… I caved.
I wasn’t going to do it, but then Cynthia Ware tweeted the other day that people had started writing hers FOR her and it kinda freaked me out. Then, today, I saw THIS video post by Annie Parsons and thought, “BRILLIANT!!! That’s the format I’m going with!”
The video is almost 7.5 minutes long so grab a snack or drink and let me amuse you for a bit. Here goes:
25 Random Things About Me from Jenni Clayville on Vimeo.
I am NOT tagging anyone… but please amuse me…
Floating Thoughts
This is the easiest way for me to post my many thoughts, that seem to be circling a barrel, without having to write in any conducive fashion. So here goes, in order of what pops up:
- Paxton is 4 weeks old today, and will be a month old in 2 days. What the…
- When he found out we were looking to purchase our next home, our jerk landlord had the nerve to say, “I’d like for you guys to buy my house.” after all the hell he put us through. Um… NO!
- I haven’t gone to see a movie in a theatre in months. I think I’ve forgotten they exist.
- It’s weird to talk to a someone who was once your closest friend and feel like you now don’t know ‘em at all. It’s disheartening.
- My head is heavy. I think my hair weighs 3 pounds. I wonder if I can weigh it somewhere.
- We’ve seen a dozen or so houses now. I feel like we have a lot of great options
- I received a really nice email from my old boss/pastor today. It was a nice surprise.
- I twitter a LOT!
- I’m excited (but a bit anxious) about moving next week into our interim house. I really like my life in order (I know… I have issues). I can’t believe it’s next weekend.
- No more baby blues for me. I’m relieved to know I’m not “progressing” into PPD.
- Thinking about selling one of my guitars ‘cuz some extra money would be nice… but it’s like parting with one of my kids.
- I finalized the service plans for our Christmas Eve Service today. I feel a bit behind in work and I don’t see myself “catching up” to where I’d like to be any time in the next month.
- Totally looking forward to our family vacation at Eagle Crest at the end of December/beginning of January. We’re gonna teach Chance how to ski (we being Brian… I don’t ski, I snowboard).
- I’m bored with the way my blogsite looks… but I don’t have time or energy to make it look any different. *sigh*
- James 2 slays me every time I read it. One day I won’t be a sinner anymore… when I’m in heaven.
- Our neighbor, Eric, just brought dinner by, offered to help us move next weekend and said he’d really miss us when we’re gone. I hope we still keep in touch with them after we move.
- I’m STILL dealing with Verizon three days later on the move order THEY messed up on. UGH! I feel a “Dear Verizon” post coming on.
- My 6-week postpartum appointment is in two weeks. I’m hoping they tell me that I can work out by then.
- How horrible is it that I kinda like when Chance is feeling a bit under the weather? It’s the only time he likes to cuddle.
Paxton’s awake now… so it’s time to end this post.
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