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Holy Crayoly!

January 27, 2010 in Family, Motherhood, Paxton with 10 Comments

Chance decided Paxton should color with him while I was putting a load of laundry in the dryer.

I came out to Paxton looking like he’s bleeding out his mouth.

This photo was taken AFTER I dug around his pie hole and found out it was marker so the red isn’t as intense. Good thing for washable & non-toxic, right?

And yes… Pax bit the WHOLE tip of the red crayola marker off and chewed on it for the whole 2 minutes I was in the laundry room… then swallowed it. YUM. Can’t wait for that to “pass”.

Poor Chance. He’s now without a red pen.

So tell me… what are some of YOUR “heart-attack”-now-not-so-scary stories.

Invite Me

January 27, 2010 in Chance, Faith, Family, Motherhood, Paxton with 22 Comments

I’m sitting here watching my 4-year-old.

He grabs a little cup from one of the bottom cabinets (we put all the kids dishes where they can reach them so they can help themselves), scurries over to the fridge, fills his cup with water and drinks from it. Then he grabs a couple apple slices I’ve cut for them and runs over to his 1-year-old little brother.

“Here Paxton… want an apple?”

As they both snack, they sit side-by-side and Chance “reads” to Paxton. Then… out of nowhere… Chance says:

“Hey Mom… you wanna come and read with us?”

ABSOLUTELY!!!

I could have easily done all that water-fetching and snack-handling for Chance and Paxton… but there was so much more pride when I saw he was self-sufficiently taking care of his own needs, sharing with his brother, playing quietly… and then he invited ME to come and play with him.

I love walking alongside my kids.
I love listening to the silliest rambling and chatter their little minds offer.
I love to watch them grow.
I love holding them close and cuddling in.
I love experiencing every milestone with them.
I even love their temper tantrums because it reveals passion.
I love being WITH them.

That’s when it hit me: This is what God wants from ME!

God loves to see me taking care of myself… taking care of others… living out my purpose. He’s always present, just like I’m present with my kids… but to be invited into the simplest, daily activities of our lives?

God loves walking alongside me.
God loves listening to the silliest rambling and chatter of my mind.
God loves to watch me grow… especially if I take a lesson in with it.
God loves holding me close… in joy or in my tears.
God loves when I experience my milestones THROUGH Him.
God even loves my passionate outbursts because I’m using the feelings He gave me.
God loves being with me.

Now, only if I’d invite Him along...

30 Seconds…

January 4, 2010 in Chance, Family, Home, Motherhood, Paxton with 7 Comments

… of my life.

Yes. Welcome…

Don’t call the authorities on me. Really… my kids like this.

What weird things do your kids like?

12.5 Hours…

December 20, 2009 in Friends, Misc, Paxton with 10 Comments

… of love will get you this:

Man, I love Tam.

What happens to you when you are so exhausted that you become delirious?

Christmas Tree & Boys

December 5, 2009 in Chance, Family, Home, Motherhood, Paxton with 3 Comments

This Christmas season is the first of a few things:

Paxton’s FIRST Christmas Tree
Chance’s FIRST time decorating the tree with us
Paxton’s FIRST time saying “WOW”
Our FIRST Christmas at this house

I am blessed…

Belated Thanksgiving Post

December 2, 2009 in Chance, Faith, Family, Friends, Marriage, Motherhood, Paxton, Personal Entries with 10 Comments

I hope y’all had an amazing Thanksgiving.

I know I did.

Brian and I went to Thanksgiving in La Grande again this year with the boys. They are both so active now, it was great to see them having so much fun at their Nina & Papa’s house.

Thanksgiving this year was bittersweet for me. It was the first Thanksgiving holiday living in complete truth… protective walls down. Everyone around the table knew what I had done… and yet, they still loved me and invited me TO their table with love and grace.

This year… “thankfulness” has a new meaning. Thankfulness has life.

I am thankful for:

*Jesus… and His grace for me.
*Brian… and his immeasurable forgiveness.
*Chance Hayden… and all the questions behind his eyes.
*Paxton Joel… and all he represents.
*Second chances to make things right.
*Truth… and the freedom that comes with it.
*Worship… and that I get to do that with reckless abandon again.
*Brian’s new job… so we can get back on our feet again.
*Brian’s parents… who have never stopped supporting us and have adopted me in as their own.
*My sisters, Renee & Helen… who make my life better.
*My mom… who gave me life so I can actually experience it.
*My dad… who helped too.
*Friends… old and new.