Jenni Clayville

Totally jumbled over here.  I feel like I’m on overload and underload all at once.  I don’t know how to explain it.  I guess I have  A LOT to think about and A LOT to do… but since I’m pretty limited with what I can do physically, I’m kind of bored.

Does that make sense?

My brain – apparently the only good thing I have left going for me – and that’s negotiable, is on overload… so I thought I’d puke some of it out here in order of what pops into my head.  Here goes:

• I’m a bit pissed that I just ordered BRAND NEW mailing address labels for a house we’ll only be in for another month of so.  What a waste of money!
• I’m at a loss with what to have packed up first.  We’re still having Thanksgiving here, so I don’t want the house totally sterile.
• One of my BFF’s, Alli, is coming to help pack for a couple of hours today.  She’s more organized and clean than I am so I’m feeling SUPER excited about this EVENT right now.  Yes… it’s an “event” for me.
• My Mom is amazing!  She’s been here for 10 days (she’s going home today) and has been the most amazing help, cook, laundry maintainer, comforter, encourager and mother to me.  She and I didn’t always have the best relationship while I was growing up, but I feel like we’re now getting to a place where our relationship can really blossom.  That makes me SO happy.
• I’m glad Brian doesn’t freak out or take it personally when I start crying randomly.
• I am on super alert regarding Postpartum Depression vs. Baby Blues.  I’m confident I’m not suffering from PPD… but I definitely have some mild Baby Blues issues.
• My body hurts because I quit taking all drugs and are ONLY on all natural remedies now.  I’m hoping this will level out my hormones and I can REALLY start to heal my body.
• My C-Section incision looks really good.  Better than the first one.
• I’ve already lost 75% of my pregnancy weight within the first week.  I owe it all to nursing.  WORD!
• I can’t wait to start working out again.  I’m feeling pretty slummy having to sit around all the time.
• No amount of eye cream is helping my eyes right now.
• I am completely humbled and thankful at how the church body has reacted in our time of crisis.  My prayer is that one day I can be as gracious and generous as some of these Christ followers.
• I’m relieved to have a remedy to our immediate housing needs.
• I love my Church and I love my Pastor!
• We’re going to see a potential house purchase today.  These trips wear me out.  Probably because I’m supposed to be taking it easy right now.
• I should take a shower today.
• My mother-in-law will be here soon.  I can’t wait!  She’s SO awesome!  I’m so fortunate to have in-laws I actually love and who actually love me as their own.
• There are leaves all over our lawn.  We were gonna rake… but now… FORGET IT!  Brian was thinking about raking and sending our landlords the bill.  LOL!
• Paxton slept 6 hours straight last night.  We all feel good this morning.
• Chance is the most amazing big brother!  How did we get so lucky in the children department?
• I sent Brian and Chance off to church this morning without me and Pax.  It’s a little weird not being at church.
• I hope Janet and Mike Fraser make it by the house today.  They make me happy.
• We took newborn photos with Kimberly yesterday.  I’m pretty sure we’re going to create ONE card that will be the: baby announcement, Christmas card and “we’ve moved” announcement.  That will save on postage.
• Paxton is a very easy going baby model.
• Brian and Chance are home now.  I’m gonna go shower and try to empty the whirling barrel of nonsense in my head.