… when my incision will reduce in swelling so I can wear REAL pants again.
… what to have packed up first since the transition house won’t be available for another month.
… if I’ll bounce back physically as quickly from Paxton as I did with Chance’s pregnancy.
… if the physical pain I feel is affecting the level of my emotional pain… or vice versa.
… how I can get over feeling abandoned because I have so many surrounding me.
… if I’ll ever feel whole again.
… how in the world I ended up with these two wonderful boys.
… how this whole move is going to affect Thanksgiving and Christmas for our family.
… when I’ll finally dig myself out of this dark hole I’ve found myself in.
Jenni- I’m sorry that things have been so rough for you recently. I can remember how had it was after having Micah and how dark that time felt. I will continue to pray that your physical and emotional healing will go quickly. Don’t forget- I’m here if you need anything. Oregon isn’t *that* far away. I’d drive down there in a heartbeat if you needed anything. Love you friend.
I know somethings are beyond your control… but what you can do is join me in.. I’m going to start a gratitude journal.. only good things.. I’m going to force myself to write only about good things in this one journal daily.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BYLMTvxOaeE
Sweetpea, it might be time to look into some anti-depressants. I’m sure that’s not the popular consensus, but I think there are some valid arguments for them. Also, if you are feeling alot of pain physically, take some of the meds you were prescribed. I know that you prefer homeopathic remedies, however there is a reason that modern meds came to be. Cut yourself some slack. The world that you have been forced to live in at this moment is a bit challenging. There’s no shame in taking help where you can find it.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! This will pass.. you are very strong! Would you rather feel a blah middle.. than feel highs and lows of this awesome time? WONGS LAUGH IN THE FACE OF CHALLENGE (while crying our face off when no one’s looking folded in fetal position in a dark corner of a strange room — which stranger happens to be our bedroom).. BUT STILL!!!! Glory will be revealed!! No matter how you are feeling now, love, you don’t want to miss it when glory come.
P.S. Weening off the anti-depressants will put you on stronger meds.. HAHAHA. I know.. look how totally crazy I am?! Nice idea… very helpful and necessary for some.. but in my very STRONG, EXPERIENCED, AND CONVINCED OPINION.. not for you.
*eye twitch*
No drugs for me for now… we’ll see how I’m doing in 3 weeks. It seems as if I only write posts when I’m down. I should stop doing that.
Crystal – HILARIOUS!!!